Yes, because Lorelairory? But that nickname is? But what does that mean? Mammamia I could not even tell me how many have asked ... and then the laughter for those who could not even pronounce this blessed name! What then is not a name but two ... well, once and for all, I decided to explain why my nick.
First, the two names that make it are Lorelai and Rory. For those who are least keen on the show knows that these are the names of the two protagonists of the series "Gilmore Girls". Yes, I agree is one of stronzatina show. It 'a kind of commedina much less a very successful series of "Dawson's Creek" and much less interesting than the infamous new "The OC" I do not follow (but I assume is compelling given the amount of wheeling and dealing they tell me ...). In short, it's nothing special, just a show for teenagers (or maybe even a little more grown-up people), which tells of the relationship of a single mother with her daughter. But the choice of my nickname is not only based on the content or the title or the characters of the show ... it goes much further. It 's a show that, although it seems strange, helped me a lot.
If the reader knows me well enough knows that in recent years (actually since 2003) I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. Recently I learned about this neurosis, I understand that some symptoms are not worrisome and I have taken the life I had a time learning to live with this thing I know well that not even explain. Of course, I will not start to tell word for word all forms of anxiety which have come upon me, but I hope you believe me when I say that is not at all easy to coexist. Personally, I went from living a normal life with the thoughts and concerns that can have any of fifteen, to a life that does not even know if this can be defined. No more disco because otherwise I felt suffocated by all that crowd, no more staying home alone for fear that something might happen when there was no one, no longer sleep alone (even) because I often wake up in a panic with my heart I was beating a thousand and legs were shaking ... well, I always need someone to help me or who was present to help in case anything happens to me. It's like living in constant fear of death ... that is not life ...
The days, months, and these anxiety attacks fade, but there always seem to be decreased, do not stop, continue their run and I still feel them constantly in mind. The fundamental problem is one. The fear of being alone that he was gone. I can not blame me since the first panic attack I had while I was home alone, reading a book sitting on the couch, in the midst of calm and with no one to rush to my aid ... no use telling the time passed without a soul around with the firm conviction of dying or having a heart attack to show that it is a terrible feeling ... But this fear was overcome. "You can not live with the nurse at seventeen," she said. And then I found a way, a stupid I admit, but effective. I began to record the episodes of this show and whenever I was alone I looked not to feel completely isolated. Slowly those faces, those sentences, those voices began to reassure me and for this reason that I listened to before bed trying to sleep in a quiet, no worries ... what was surprising is that it worked. Even today, if I'm alone and I feel anxious I turn on the television, the VCR and I look aziono an episode of "Gilmore Girls." I do not know why I chose this show, but I think I did it instinctively, because of its simplicity. There are people who are crying or sadness that you submit (at least in this first series!), there are a mother, daughter, friends, enemies, college, books to read or study, there is a small town with friendly faces and unique characters ... all can be stupid, child, whatever you want, but it is precisely this kind of turned into a perennial comedy show that has managed to calm down and not make me feel anxious when I was home alone. In a way I was able to gradually overcome these attacks thanks to those videos which are now merged ... and that's why I bring these two names ... because at the bottom are the names that symbolize the peace that managed to find and that made me start a normal life like the one I had before. I do not care if someone looks sad, and also try to spend 3 years of anxiety and then I want to see if he does not discover his weak point!
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